OUR WEDDING!!

Well it's been awhile since I've blogged about anything...and trust me sooo much has been going on...Mario started High school, Nathalie is off at college, and after 8 long years.. Mauricio and I finally got married!!!

We had a ceremony in the backyard with friends and family...Julissa was our flower girl, she was cute.




It's been a ride with lots of ups and downs...but we've been able to hang in there and still love one another... I know that I can trust him and he knows that he can trust me...we talk with one another before making decisions and before making plans...I have the open communication and the love that I know most women don't.



Our 1st dance as a couple....

2010 GRADUATION...

Well it's almost time for Nathalie's Graduation..this coming Saturday (5/29/2010)..It will be a great day and an emotional day. My last baby girl is graduating high school!! OMG! We haven't decided yet what to do for her celebration, but we're a last minute type of family..so we'll have something she wants to do.. I know my momma would be very proud of "her girl" and all that Nathalie has accomplished throughout her years. I, myself, am very proud of her...she felt the stress when she was involved with all the different 'extra' activities from her classes or clubs.. but still she made it...I just can't put into words how I feel...it's just a feeling of different sorts...

I love you Nathalie!!

NMHS Pacesetter

Well the year is coming to a close for Nathalie...She had sooo much involvement this year: JROTC, Student Council, Pacestters, ....and with each group, lots of different activities: DASH, organizing walks, dances, conventions, games, practices... It's all ending....This week on Friday and Saturday, she will have her final show for us parents at the Pacesetter Stage Show. Saturday is when the Seniors will hang up their hats and move on...and since the drill team coach is leaving ..she has requested that the Pacesetters get to wear their outfits one last time for the student/faculty basketball game next week. So during half-time, the Pacesetters will be performing their kick routines...and that will be the last show, the last time to dance...I know that Nathalie will be crying come Saturday, when she has to hang up her hat...and I too will be sad to see her do that.. she was all into being a Pacesetter, she loved every minute of it.

In My Daughter's Eyes..

I know that all women feel they know it all, especially when in their teens...but we were all daughters in this lifetime.. and I know I want better for my girls and their girls...I know that there have been times I just feel like giving up and I know that my momma went through the same thing.. she went through more things but she never gave up, even when she was weak, she never gave up. Now we are living for her and we cannot give up, when times get tough, we must keep going..not only for our sake, but for our kids...



In My Daughter's Eyes / Martina McBride

Lyrics:

In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me
strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes

And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about

It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes

One Moment More....

This is what I would have loved to have.. one moment more with my momma.
I will never forget her flatlined and then one big breath (one moment more)...13...




Lyrics:

One Moment More / Mindy Smith

Hold me
Even though I know you're leaving
And show me
All the reasons you would stay
It's just enough to feel your breath on mine
To warm my soul and ease my mind
You've got to hold me and show me now

Give me
Just one part of you to cling to
And keep me
Everywhere you are
It's just enough to steal my heart and run
And fade out with the falling sun

Oh, please don't go
Let me have you just one moment more
Oh, all I need
All I want is just one moment more
You've got to hold me and keep me

Tell me that someday you'll be returning
And maybe
Maybe I'll believe
It's just enough to see a shooting star
To know you're never really far
It's just enough to see a shooting star
To know you're never really gone

Oh, please don't go
Let me have you just one moment more
Oh, all I need
All I want is just one moment more

Oh, please don't go
Let me have you just one moment more
Oh, all I need
All I want is just one moment more
You've got to hold me and maybe I'll believe

So hold me
Even though I know you're leaving

2010 - NEW YEAR ...

Well we actually were all together this year for New Year's. We headed to Belinda's house and she had a cook-out with meat, rice, beans, drinks..we had a good time... midnight came so fast.. Mauricio wasn't feeling to good so we didn't really stay that long into the New Year.... I called momma's #, just like in the previous years, and wished her a Happy New Year. Noone has her # yet, but even if someone had the # I would still say "Happy New Year Momma"...

Our first year without her, almost a year since she passed away. I keep thinking back to that morning, Monday Jan 19th, and all of us at the hospital with her, laughing and joking...noone knew that would be our last time to hear her laugh and joke with the nurse. It still doesn't seem real, even after all these months. I still feel that I have not mourned her death, it doesn't seem real yet..is this normal? There are times when I'm driving home from work and I'll look at her memory card (from funeral) and I just talk to her...listening to some CDs, and I can just see her next to me tapping her hand and nodding her head to the beat..or singing along...there are times that I feel myself making an expression that my mom would make.. I don't know how to explain it, but if I'm thinking of something or just staring at something, I feel inside as if it's my mother's pose/expression...