1st week of hospitalization

This was the first full week my momma has been in the hospital.

I took off work on Tuesday and Wednesday (she was admitted on Monday).

I 've been on the same routine all week, take kids to school in morning, head to work, call Daniela to get an update, after work go straight to hospital and stay til about 10pm or so. Guicho would call me after he would get home from work and ask if I wanted the kids up there (nathalie/mario), so that he can take them up there to be with me and momma. Then he would take them back home if they left before I did. Every night I'd walk in my mom's room to check on her and to talk with her. When leaving every night, I'd go check on my mom and ask her the same questions, " momma can you hear me?", she would nod her head yes. I 'd tell her to squeeze my hand and she would. I'd ask her if she was in pain, she'd say no. I'd ask if she was cold, she'd say no. I'd ask if she was tired, she'd say no. I'd tell her when I was leaving, but would be back the next day after work and to get some rest.

Strange Feeling...

On this day, at 4:52am I awoke from my sleep with a feeling of peacefulness, calmness...just a feeling of ease (which I've never felt before). I checked the clock and laid back down to sleep, when my sister Daniela calls me at 4:55am saying that my momma had suffered another heart attack. I got up and headed to the hospital right away...I went to my momma's room and both my sisters were already there and a nurse. Daniela told me that momma did suffer another heart attack and that they were getting momma ready to take her upstairs to do her dialysis. We were all in there talking and joking around with momma (as usual). Around 7:15am the nurse said that they would be taking momma upstairs to start her dialysis and it'll take about 4-5 hrs. So me and Belinda figured, okay we can head to work and come back afterwards (Belinda works up the road and me in Addison) Daniela said that she would go home and try to get some sleep. Around 11am Daniela calls me to let me know that momma was still in dialysis. Then around 2:10pm at work, I get a call from Daniela(she was crying badly), I just said 'hey', and she started saying that momma was incubated, she couldn't breathe. I hung up and grabbed my things and notified one of my co-workers that I had to leave on emergency to please let our supervisor know..and headed out to the hospital.

I arrived to see my momma hooked up to a lot of bags/machines...Dr. Desoyza said that after her dialysis, momma started having problems breathing and he asked her to be hooked up to the machine, which momma said no. Dr. Desoyza said that she was arguing with him about the machine and he explained to her, that if she doesn't get hooked up she will die right then and there. So momma told him and the nurses to hook up the machine, but not for more than 30 days. (momma has always told us that she never wanted to be kept alive by machine, so we know that she was suffering trying to breathe on her own to change her mind)

Mauricio (Guicho) had called me after I left him a message, and told him what had happened (he couldn't believe what I was telling him).. he asked if I wanted him to take the kids (nathalie / mario) up there to be with me and momma.. I told him that he could ask them if they wanted to come and if they did, then yes he could bring them. (they all came that evening)

We all stayed at the hospital til late that night, Guicho took the kids back around 10pm and I left later that night. Momma was sedated.